It's weird but I found a journal I had when I was about 14 years old.
I have changed a lot but it is also because I let myself become too comfortable with my temporary life.

When my parents divorced, I gained a lot of weight and stopped caring about myself.
I kept thinking, "oh well, I'll care later, I'll care later."

I ended up being waaaay too comfortable and now that I look back, its way out of control.
I really don't care about it, and it has been much later.
So now I have a lot of work to do.

I was always, I guess someone you will call a girly-girl.
Not only because I was self-centered or anything like that.
I just cared about myself.
I cared about my skin, my hair, my teeth, etc.
Now, I just honestly, do not care.
Even if I have time, I don't even care about conditioning my hair
or moisturizing my face.

Its pretty depressing to know finally realize what I have become.
I can't do anything else but blame myself and fix it.

So I have already thought about my new year's resolution.
To actually do something to change my life.
No wonder why I'm so lazy and uninspired.
Because I don't get off my lazy ass and just do it!

What to do, what to do?!

So in the previous entry, I said I wanted to start saving money.
It's really hard to work at a restaurant with such good food that is expensive! :(
MAN! their food is delicious! I can't get enough! LOL

I have no will power :(
I suck!

I was thinking that maybe I should not bring any money to work, therefore,
I can't pay for it anyway.

So...I'm trying this new thing where I save my money!
Pretty hard! I have this adorable little piggy bank that I got
for my 13th birthday. I'm going to start saving all my change now
and see how much it ends up adding up to be. I'm also going
to try and spend lesssssss money on food!!! Yeah, I have this
crazy food obsession! No, I'm not ginormous, I just really love to eat!
I'm going to use this journal as a spending/eating tracker.

No, I'm not weight obsessed either.
I'm going to see if it really makes that much of a difference in my weight
if I eat 'healthier'. So far, I just eat what I want, when I want.

Tracking staaarrttss...TOMORROW!